"Time is a wheel in constant motion always rolling us along."
Time flies, we know. Our everchanging days go by before my eyes. But in between the chaos, I definitely try my hardest to soak it all in. Our little bear..the sweetest bear...is officially one.
One year ago today, I waddled my way up into the hospital bed even more nervous than I was with Emma or Avery. I knew what to expect alright..and I knew it would hurt like words I should not use on a blog. But the thought of cuddling with our newborn baby pushed me to the max just to have the greatest moments one will ever discover in life - meeting your child for the first time. And trust me, I know I am beyond lucky and grateful to be able to experience giving new life to a child. It's indescribable.
And then you become part of that parent world who passes on the word. "Enjoy every moment with your newborn! They go by way too quick!" you tell those new moms who truly feel like their newborn days just might last forever. But my goodness, it's true...the days are long, but the years are freakin' short.
And then if your lucky, you have your second baby and the love grows wild and the days get wilder. But you know..you know how fast it goes by so you try your damn hardest to soak in those crazy hard moments that you know you'll one day wish to have back.
And then if you're even luckier (or crazier, depending how you look at it!) your third baby comes along, or fourth, fifth, etc. (and if you're like me, you just may have your third 3 years after your first). Of course by number 3, you feel like a crazy person pulled in 456 directions at once and your mom guilt may set in hard at the end of the day when you question what you could have done better for each child or who you should have given more attention to. It's a tough and wonderful ride, I tell you. BUT, that third baby...when that third baby turns one, you're like w-w-w-waitttt a minute, what? Did we miss a few months? Somehow, in LESS than the blink of an eye, that sweet amazing newborn who you thought you'd surely make it a point to soak in all the days now that you've "figured out" the multiple kid thing..well then they turn one too. And it's just as bittersweet as the first, if not more, because you're not sure if this just might be your last time celebrating your child's first birthday.
Well, here we are. Ready to celebrate my baby boy's first birthday. Gosh I love this little bear with all my might. And I know he loves me too...those eyes, that smile, and the way he lays his head on my shoulder sometimes just screams to me how much he loves me! He brings so much love to our family and brings the cutest little squeals and laughs to our crew.
I never want to forget those bright blue eyes with handsome long lashes that bat at me while you're being sweet, your squeals of excitement when something is coming your way, the way you shrug your shoulders when we ask you something and give us the cutest "I don't know" look EVER, that toothy smile when you're super happy, the pouty lip when you're sad, or that birthmark near your eye. All of that combined makes one special YOU at age one that I want to bottle up forever to look back on as you grow.
Happy First Birthday, my most handsome baby boy. I love you with my whole heart, more than you'll ever know! Stay brave, stay wild, stay sweet...
I hope you never lose your sense of wonder.
Oh, and if you get the choice to sit it out or dance, I hope you dance!
You will, you will! We love you, baby bear, Sullivan James!